I cannot say I am totally happy with myself in this  moment. I am having too many times when I react to life instead of responding. It has been many years since this behavior has come from me and it is confusing and frustrating. My voice always reveals what I am feeling so it isn't possible for me to hide this from others. I am being just as impatient with myself as I have been with others. I am being gentle & forgiving with myself as I remind myself to be kind to me first. With others, I apologize & I truly make an effort not to do it at all...I am not always successfully. It is embarrassing to say the least. I have precious friends and an amazing family so I receive understanding and forgiveness. I also choose to forgive myself but mainly I just want to stop doing this!!

Sharing this in my blog is difficult and necessary for my own growth and spiritual progress. I teach and lead meditation. Others turn to me for understanding, support, and guidance. What...