The Little Things

When I put my house on the market a few years ago, I mentally gave myself a year for the full transition to happen because I knew people in my neighborhood that had their houses on the market for six months or more. One week after listing, I accepted an offer and three weeks later I was meeting the moving van at my apartment in another state. It was a lot of work but it all came together. I was settling into my new home.

Yep, there I was, without a doubt or second thought about my decision or my choices. I had yet to learn that fast, and at times, dramatic changes, are unsettling even when it is exactly what I want.

For example, I made up my mind about when to make an appointment to have work done on my car. I am retired and was new in town so there were no commitments keeping me from going to the dealership. I made the decision to have the work done and four or five days later I still hadn't called. Why? Because I was hung up on when to get it done!

As I write this, I am laughing. That day my intention was to make the call and have it done. That was my intention the day before as well...and the day before. Is this typical of me? Sort of but not really. For the most part, I am well-organized by nature. I just get things done so I can move on to something more interesting or fun. Being human, there are times when I just get stuck. My answer is to be patient with myself. In this case, nothing was seriously wrong with the car so I had some leeway. I had the money budgeted and, obviously free time was not an issue. So, I had a laugh and gave myself the freedom to pick up the phone when the fancy would strike for real. Later, I would be very happy it was done.

There was a time when I would have denigrated myself and had a time of it rather than laughing and knowing it would get done. I had learned to love myself more and allow myself to be where I was in the moment. Being human is a journey of imperfection and wonder and the opportunity to love myself as I am. The Divine loves me as I am so who I am to say that is an inappropriate choice?

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